This month, I’ve read so much. Not so much fiction, but non-fiction, which is strange for me. I like to read stories…all kinds of stories. You’ll usually find my nose stuck inside an Amish romance, or maybe something else quite similar.

This hasn’t been the case in April. I’ve read memoirs and so many books about theology. I’ve really enjoyed stretching my brain while my heart winds itself around notions about God and how deep and wide His love is, despite the world we live in.

Over the past few years, I’ve learned how to embrace the sadness that is sometimes simply a part of life. I’ve faced my fears and am honestly okay with most of the big things that used to scare and worry me. I see life as a beautiful mesh of the good and “bad,” which at the end of the day helps us to learn and grow into the people we’re meant to be.

My trust in God had grown, but I grew weary of reading books that seemed to have God all figured out. Who could actually know the mystery which is God? So for a long time, I stopped.

In my past life I thought I knew everything there was to know about God, which was completely foolish. If a faith tradition claims to have all the answers, or even the correct interpretation of the Bible, it might be a good idea to remember that there are literally tens of thousands of denominations out there. Simply because we cannot all agree!

While I now think there is something beautiful about the diversity of all faiths, I think it’s probably wise to not believe that there is only one correct way to look at things. I think God is much bigger than that!

So I’ve been happy to find that there are theologians who believe that their opinion isn’t the only correct one. To hear experts say, “Hey, it’s okay to have questions. God accepts you just as you are. In fact, the Bible is full of people who questioned God,” has been a balm to my soul.

God accepts us just.as.we.are. Your questions are okay!

I’m so happy to serve an accepting and loving God whom I believe is fully realized in the story of Jesus.

And right now I love reading, reading, and reading about it.

It’s funny. I thought I’d be spending my time lately writing a new novel, but instead, I’ve been devouring books and spending hours in my garden when I’m not tending to my home or children. And it’s been just what my soul needs at the moment.

I’m believing that this intuitive pull is exactly what I’m supposed to follow right now. So I’m going with it!

Have you ever felt led to do something you haven’t planned, and then it blessed you so much? That’s where I am right now.

So I guess I’m going to keep buying second-hand books as my perspective continues to change and grow. I’m going to read on my porch while my children laugh and play in the yard. I’ll think about what I’ve learned while weeding the garden, tending to both the soil and my soul.

It sounds like a pretty nice spring, if you ask me.

I hope you follow where God is leading you with your whole heart, too. I know it’s gonna be beautiful!

Thanks for stopping by today, friends. I hope you have an amazing day!